Do you have a purpose?
I’m not a religious person, although I went to Sunday school when I was younger and enjoyed it on the whole. I do remember feeling like this wasn’t the whole story though and that some of the stuff that was said didn’t make sense. As an adult, I can see that the stories we were read were metaphors for living a good life and not hurting other people.
I’m not sure what I believe in now exactly, it’s a kind of group of ideas that have appealed to me over the years which have coalesced into my own beliefs. For example, I do think there is something that nudges me in the right direction or shows me things I need to see at the right time. I can see the moments in my days where coincidence just doesn’t cover something that’s happened.
I don’t believe that you need to follow a strict code to be a good person, but I think there are universal ‘don’ts’ that apply (killing people, stealing, causing other people harm). I also think that people have purpose in their life. Either one purpose or many, I think everyone is different in that respect.
Maybe your purpose is to help others find peace through meditation or yoga. Maybe your purpose is to make the world more beautiful by creating art for people to enjoy. Maybe your purpose isn’t clear.
Certainly, I think mine is evolving but I really enjoy helping people. It’s what I enjoyed most in my IT job and it’s what eventually drove me out of it. I felt like I wanted to do more, help more people in more fundamental ways. Yes, it’s great to be on the end of a phone helping to make someone’s day easier because you found the document they deleted but I felt like I could do more. I still do.
I also think that some of the things that I went through in my life have brought me to the place where I have more compassion, empathy and love to share than ever before. If I’d have had an easy life with no challenges or struggles, I’d have been unendurable and smug that things came so easily to me!
But having come to a point where I understand what has happened to me and why it happened, I can see now how it’s shaped who I am. How I put more into trying to make things better so that other people don’t feel the same sorrow, anger or frustration that I have. It was painful but it didn’t need to be quite as bad as it was.
The world has changed since I was in a situation where I was trying to change career and I think that will have been easier for some people than others who arrive here. For some, they will have had a chance to understand exactly what’s wrong and what needs to change in order for them to be happier.
For others, they will just feel like things are still not quite right, even though things are looking brighter in the world outside, they feel worse than ever inside themselves. To those people, I’d say hang on, there is light. You will need to let it in which means breaking down some of the walls keeping everything together for you right now.
You do have a purpose, you may know it already or may just have a vague feeling. The most important thing is not to give up. You’ll find it in time and if reading this feels like a sign for you, think about what’s happened in your life and see if you can find it in there.
If not, it will find you sooner or later, just keep looking for the signs ✨💖